Something in my heart

Since not many people read my blog,
I shall just take this as my secret little diary.

This is going out to 'you'.
I can't believe i still have a crush on you after 3 years.
That is a hell long time for a crush i would say.
I would like to know you more,but it just seems so hard.
There seems to be a wall which i find it hard to penetrate.

When you come online,i just feel happy for no reason.
Yet all i can do is to open the conversation page and close it.
Open and Close it,Open and Close it.
Yet something just keeps me going at it,
Which i can never explain and never will be able to.

I'm afraid i might not be able to match up to 'you',
Maybe this fear could be preventing me from trying at all.
After all you are the first girl that i fell for.

An answer is all i seek,
But a date is what i wish.